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OFF TO SEE THE GREAT GATSBY NOW!

Im in love with the security guard in Quinton.

The nicest guy ever,

Last nights shenanigans:

Went to an all you can eat and couldn’t eat that much ahah, student eater

Had to lay on the floor before actors club because I was so full

Proceeded to get drunk and rap the whole of where is the love with joe and quavers and also be a dying fantine so sam and jamie could do the confrontation between javert and val jean

Went into town and went to nbs which has a cave

Decided to leave and took dans keys

Got hideously lost on the way back, ended up down the canal, had to climb a hill and got covered in mud, got a lift back in a police car

Worked out how to turn on an xbox and managed to watch the nightmare before xmas whilst waiting for dan to get back

eventful

didn’t even know northampton had a canal

Such a. Fucking failure . Why can I never succeed with guys why do they have to think I’m trying to fuck them over. Done with this he’s should bee the one apologising sick sick sick of shit. I’m not out to hurt you you idiot why would I cause trouble on purpose . This is pissed me off so much. Look at this current anger. Why can’t I believe in fairytale romance why cos it doesn’t exist because we’re all so scared an stupid to let ourselves fall in love anymore. Bullshit. Look like a fucking attention whore now but don’t ducking care. Fuck this.

"ROBIN
 If we shadows have offended,
 Think but this, and all is mended—
 That you have but slumbered here
 While these visions did appear.
 And this weak and idle theme,
 No more yielding but a dream,
 Gentles, do not reprehend.
 If you pardon, we will mend.
 And, as I am an honest Puck,
 If we have unearnèd luck
 Now to ’scape the serpent’s tongue,
 We will make amends ere long.
 Else the Puck a liar call.
 So good night unto you all.
 Give me your hands if we be friends,
 And Robin shall restore amends."

I am in love with A Midsummer Nights Dream

that is all.

"And we only smoke when bored
So we do two packs a day
And we’ve lost the difference
Between bored and lonely anyway"

"In a world of abandoned items and discarded materials, Violet knew there was always something."

Every time I want to nap I have to battle the reggae beats from across the coridoor WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP YOUR OPEN ugh piss of back home again

I know what I could achieve and that’s why I fucking hate depression

It seems no one is safe from the sadness this world can inflict

Today…well yesterday

Wednesday night was beautiful - went to this amazing Thai resturant with Dan then played Mario kart and beat his friends ass at it. We went to a house party and then I woke up today and came back.

Took some time to myself for once before going to a meeting about the fire alarm (haha) which was ok because Jon came with me. Then we watched how to train your dragon and walked across the racecourse to the shop and brought some random stuff. Went to the picturedrome to have a drink of my favourite - double archers. Then went and lay on the racecourse in the dark and talked and smoked and watched the stars.

Came back and watched cloudy with a chance of meatballs - awesome.

And now, to bed. xxxxx

Last night I had a hideous dream

That I walked into a room where people were wearing white boiler suits and neutral masks and then I ran into a room having a panic attack and people were trying to hug me.

Then I dreamt my boyfriend called me and told me he was in love with me and I freaked the fuck out and lost the ability to speak and hung up on him.

Why do the dreams always feel so real.

Fucking pills.

im gonna snap in half. 

i need a p.a.

or a slap.

or a coma.

ugh.

I don’t understand how it is possible to keep cigs when I am off my face on gin and still have them the next day

But lose two packets completely sober in the space of a week.

I hate to make needy statuses

so I will rant here instead

if you look up the definition of stressed in a dictionary

there should be a picture of me